Friday, August 25, 2006

Summertime

On this wistful August day,
I watch the sunset in sadness,
Knowing that summer is slowly fading away.
The whimsical breeze grows cold,
As the chill of fall takes hold.
With regret I wish,
This once,
That it would last a little longer...

Summertime

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Why do I do this to myself?

I'm having drama at the moment. Mostly in my head. Cause here's what happened.

I asked a guy if he wanted to play guitar with me for a wedding in about 3 weeks. We are friends (supposedly). After I left a message, I saw him at church on Sunday night, and asked if he got my message. He said he did, and asked how soon I needed to know his availability. I told him, "monday, or tuesday at the latest."

Then on Monday, I started to think about it. Lately, everytime I've been around him, it has been just weird and awkward, almost like I'm imposing on his life or something, like I'm never in focus, but always in the perimeter. And it made me want to take back my invite to him to play. I was kind of hoping he wouldn't call me back.

I didn't hear back from him at all yesterday (tuesday) and he hadn't seemed that interested when I talked to him on Sunday, so last night, (still tues) I asked someone else to play with me, who was very excited about it and ready to bring some ideas to the table.

Then this morning, guy number one emails me: "hey, I can play the wedding, when can we rehearse, I'm a great guitar player" He was trying to be funny. I emailed him back and said, "you didn't get back to me soon enough, I asked someone else already, sorry." He emailed me back and said, "um, ok."

So now I'm feeling bad about the whole situation. I HATE DRAMA!!!